Crazy Over Money

Last Thursday morning, just when I was about to leave, I got surprised to see that an MMDA ticket was on my car's windshield. It suddenly dawned on me that it was already past 8 in the morning and that the MMDA personnel who were doing their usual rounds already passed by our street. I know it was my fault but it did change my mood that day.

Fast forward today, I googled the corresponding penalties written in my MMDA ticket. There wasn't any amount indicated but there were codes associated with the supposed violations. Upon checking on their website, it totaled around P3,150. I was really surprised!

I don't know about other people but money could really turn me from being the happiest guy on earth to being the saddest. For me, that P3,150 could do a lot. It felt so disappointing. I'm blaming myself for waking up late that day.

I know that I could've just shrugged it off and move forward but I really can't help but overthink. I tend to compute the number of hours that I will be spending in my part-time job just to earn that much.

And just when I thought that things couldn't get worse, Metrobank, the only bank where I could pay the violations, said that they stopped accepting payments for MMDA tickets since December of last year. Now, I only have Bayad Center or SM Payment Center to pay the penalties but hopefully, they haven't stopped processing MMDA tickets too. What a day!

Lord,

I know I'm not perfect. Help me to properly process this negative emotion that all of a sudden gets into me whenever I encounter money problems. Help me be creative enough to channel this emotion to more meaningful ways. 

Amen.

Today I am Thankful.

I am so happy. On my way home, I was just talking to myself as if I was being interviewed on TV. It was just so uplifting to know that I am already part of something bigger, something that I was just praying and hoping before but now, it's starting to become my reality. Thank You, Lord!

Recently, I've been very busy doing a lot of things - school, office, my businesses, my part time job, my household (Christian cell group), family, love life and all the other things that I've been keeping myself busy. I just don't stop. I kept on pushing myself to do stuff that I myself could not even find time to finish. It's affecting my health, of course. It's been almost a week now that I'm feeling some back pain and I'm planning to get a massage soon (if I could still spare more time). In spite of all the struggles, what matters is at the end of the day, it feels so satisfying.

I've always wanted to take on roles like this. I've always known that I was born to do great things. Most of the times, I focused so much on my struggles that I forget to be grateful for my small successes, but looking back, those challenges were actually my stepping stones to move up.

I have yet to achieve the life that I dreamed of having but I know for a fact that what happened today was a huge leap closer to my dream. I know that  I meant to do bigger things. As long as I'm seeing progress every single day, I'm one day closer to a successful and meaningful life.

Lord,

I am filled with joy today. Thank  You for making today happen. There were moments earlier that I was about to back out but You seemed so persistent in pushing me to try it. And, it was really worth it! 

Continue to guide me, Lord! I know this new path that I will be taking would be even more challenging. Strengthen my heart as I face every single challenge every day.

Amen.