Today I am Thankful.

I am so happy. On my way home, I was just talking to myself as if I was being interviewed on TV. It was just so uplifting to know that I am already part of something bigger, something that I was just praying and hoping before but now, it's starting to become my reality. Thank You, Lord!

Recently, I've been very busy doing a lot of things - school, office, my businesses, my part time job, my household (Christian cell group), family, love life and all the other things that I've been keeping myself busy. I just don't stop. I kept on pushing myself to do stuff that I myself could not even find time to finish. It's affecting my health, of course. It's been almost a week now that I'm feeling some back pain and I'm planning to get a massage soon (if I could still spare more time). In spite of all the struggles, what matters is at the end of the day, it feels so satisfying.

I've always wanted to take on roles like this. I've always known that I was born to do great things. Most of the times, I focused so much on my struggles that I forget to be grateful for my small successes, but looking back, those challenges were actually my stepping stones to move up.

I have yet to achieve the life that I dreamed of having but I know for a fact that what happened today was a huge leap closer to my dream. I know that  I meant to do bigger things. As long as I'm seeing progress every single day, I'm one day closer to a successful and meaningful life.

Lord,

I am filled with joy today. Thank  You for making today happen. There were moments earlier that I was about to back out but You seemed so persistent in pushing me to try it. And, it was really worth it! 

Continue to guide me, Lord! I know this new path that I will be taking would be even more challenging. Strengthen my heart as I face every single challenge every day.

Amen.

At Peace.

Recently, I've been very vocal about how satisfied I am. I kind of feel like things are in the places where I want them to be. I still overthink but it's not like how I used to do it. It seemed like I'm in a totally new person.

God answered my prayers. Before I realized how He granted each one of my heart's desires, He prepared me to be here; to experience the life that I've been praying for the last couple of months.

Everyday, I still struggle to face new challenges but there's this new energy in me that makes me feel spiritually strong. I still get drained, stressed out, frustrated and unloved but there's this unexplained hope in me that continues to hold and believe that everything's going to be fine.

God is indeed in control of everything. When we feel like we're about to give up, pray. Because that's what I did. The problems just kept on coming every single day and I just kept on praying.

Let me share a beautiful line that struck me from the recently concluded Liveloud 2017, a Catholic praise concert:

This is true. I don't have to know what my future is, I just have to trust Him because I know He has great plans for me.

Lord,

Thank you for all the blessings. Thank you for giving me the peace that I've been longing for. Thank you for granting all my prayers despite of the sins that I still continue to commit. You are indeed a Forgiving, Understanding and Loving God.

Help me, Lord, to overcome all the trials and my personal battles against sin. Guide me to become a good example to my fellow Christians.

Amen.